Embracing my duality
As I write this, I am sitting in my living room, surrounded by darkness and numerous candle lights. I have spent the better part of this Friday evening cleaning up my apartment, cooking dinner, making a few phone calls to close friends and my brother, reading blogs online, doing some writing and watching TV.
As I write this, I realize that I have a duality within me that I’ve tried to escape. I am the hummingbird, the fleeting little bird who flies from flower to flower, from event to event, whose attention span is limited to mere nanoseconds. Yet, spending an evening with myself and the couch, cleaning up my apartment floors, washing dishes and listening to sometimes unrecognizable voices on the TV screen, I realize that I like being a polar bear. I like my time alone.
As I write this, I cherish the connectedness of having a Twitter open, yet the isolation of being in a different location and space than my fellow Twitterers. And I enjoy the fact that I can establish a connection yet I can also isolate myself should I wish to do so.
How dual I am? Quite a lot, if you ask me. I’m an introverted extrovert. I love people yet I cherish my time with myself. I am loving and passionate yet analytical and cerebral. I’m two merged in one.
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- My 2012 Manifesto: Embracing Change
- On shaving my head and embracing change
- Making my apartment nicer, one step at a time
- Storytelling: Embracing a powerful method to share knowledge
- Embracing destiny
So say we all
It’s nice to see open minded recognition of the self’s multiple facets. I know we often strive towards a fixed, stable self as socially desirable, and yet invariably, as we all discover eventually, life changes, things shift, and one part of us that works well in one environment, might not work so well in another. So props to you for looking at an age old question with healthy optimism!